Definitely not horror
It’s not for me
I used to watch scary movies when I was younger. I’ve seen a Saw movie, and I watched 28 Days Later AND 28 Weeks Later when they came out. But now? I can’t even stomach watching The Handmaid’s Tale, even though I thought the final episode of Season 2 was the best episode of television I have ever seen.
It might be because I’m still breastfeeding? I always feel like my defences are down when I’m pregnant or breastfeeding; I mean, I’m sure all of us who have been pregnant can relate to the random tears brought on by that fun cocktail of hormones.
Or it might be because I’ve changed who I’m making decisions for. I’m always interested when I see a change in myself to think about if it’s been driven internally or externally. For example, I used to think I was a cut and dry extrovert. Always socialising, always drinking, never wanting to be left out of anything. In retrospect I can recognise that I was never extroverted, I just couldn’t gain other people’s approval when I was alone (and I craved it constantly).
The working from home opportunities I have experienced post-covid have been an absolute revelation. Up until that point I barely had any time alone in my house. My husband would take the kids out pretty regularly but with three and then four kids, there always seemed to be a straggler left at home or being dropped off at some point during my alone time. Now? I have hours and hours alone in my home every week. I’m no longer desperate for anyone else’s approval and I notice the stress in my body when I have been “people facing” for too much of the day or week.
And what about horror movies? Did I just watch them because everyone else was and I wanted to be a ‘cool girl’? Probably. I certainly can’t name a horror movie that I would want to watch again. Am I still trying to be a cool girl? Again, probably.
is my hero! I love her recommendations! And my husband is a total horror connoisseur - I guess deep down I just wanted to be the kind of person who can enjoy something scary. But that’s what my work is all about right? I am who I am, I like what I like, and I need to embrace how wonderful that is.How about you? Do you like horror movies? Or try to like them because other people do?
I definitely went through a period of not being able to watch horror movies when my babies were little! Especially body horror when you’re breastfeeding is brutal!! Sorry 28 Years Later was very intense! I am in a horror phase at the moment and I’m not sure why???